I enjoy an alcoholic beverage as much as the next student. However, last term I started to rely on alcohol when I felt particularly anxious or distressed.
If I felt low, I would have a shot of vodka to get me onto campus. I’m not proud of it. But at the time, it was a quick fix because it made me feel slightly better. If I felt particularly bad, I would turn to miniature bottles of vodka. I would like to stress that I’m not an alcoholic. I wouldn’t say I’m addicted to alcohol. This didn’t happen every day, just when I happened to hit a low point.
When things got tough over the Easter holiday, I drank in excess to block out negative thoughts. One night, I put myself at risk which was the wake up call I needed to seek help.
Since then I’ve begun a course of antidepressants. I’ve been advised to cut down on my drinking and I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss it to an extent. Therefore, Blue Nun is my saviour. It’s a wine which is relatively low in alcohol which means that I can enjoy a glass with my friends before a night out.
Love, Medikitty